Hi I'm new to this site and am a fairly new christian. I have made a huge leap in my spiritual walk. and it feels great that i have made so much improvment with everything. God has a plan and a purpose for my life even though sometimes it seems like he is distant.

 want nothing more than to leave this world with people remebering me for my heart, not always for my actions. I am constantly trying to humble myself, trying to become my heart in the flesh. I love people who can make me laugh. I am constantly learning something new about what life is all about and discovering something new about myself. I tend to always see the good through out the bad, and consider myself a strong person. There isn't much that I feel like I can't handle. I have the tendency to be constantly thinking about everyone before myself, although I am no where close to perfect, I screw up daily! I somehow find beauty in my flaws and learn to accept them as they come. I don't like creepy people but I do like to meet new people and get to know people better. Currently I am going to school to get my RN degree because I want nothing more in my life than to serve others and to make a difference. I want to leave this world knowing that I have touched the heart of thousands, yes, thousands. I'm a pretty open person so if you have any questions, just ask me!    AND I HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR A YEAR NOW!   YEPPY~!

Theres a place in your heart that I haven't been to. Take me there...I want to see what makes you think the way you do. I hope you will learn to trust me and to discover that I'm not always what meets the eye...

Invisible

Let’s state the obvious; I didn’t get my so called perfect fantasy. I’ve come to realize that you love yourself way more than you could have ever loved me. It’s too bad cause I could have made your eyes light up and made you smile. You never realized the impact you made on my life. You never got to see how the thought of your presence captivated me. All I wanted was for you to show me that I wasn’t invisible.

Why did you have to break a heart that was finally put back together? There use to be this part of you that made the light shine through me. All I can think about is what you think of me and why are we in this place now. I bought into every word you said and I never realized that it would be something I’d later regret. I wonder if you stay awake at night trying to think about what you want. Are you wondering if you will ever find what you want?

You weren’t worth a single tear or a minute lost of sleep. I should have told my heart no and that you didn’t deserve it. You always knew all the right things to say but do you really expect things to be the same after this? If you do, you are sadly mistaken. Maybe this is a harsh and mean reality but it is the truth. I’m frustrated that my kindness is looked upon as a weakness; as if I have no respect for myself. This is not the case, I have enough respect for myself to know that I am okay with out you...